Dunno if @champagnepapi really said this but it’s appropriate in SO many areas of life. My favorite thing to say is you don’t get the chance to miss a situation that, by your own admission, was messed up due to what you did or didn’t do. Sometimes it’s best to simply commit to your sanity, wish people well, but never allow them the opportunity to “do” after damage has been done. Whatever’s meant to be will be, and if not, consider it a blessing that the Lord saw fit to completely close a door that you were trying to rig open.
Remember that it’s quite alright to be selfish; guard your heart and remember that no matter what, your own happiness is paramount! Learn to accept that things just are what they are, appreciate His NO, and move it right along, darling! 😉 God doesn’t make mistakes; stop beating yourself up like YOU did. 💤